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Enough of flooding my tagboard. i am alright and not suffering from depression. i do not need to seek any form of therapy. Neither do u guys spectculate tt i am suffering any kind of anxiety attack. i am a queer person. i like to be left alone, so what's wrong with me shutting up with the damn world? i do not owe anyone anything. Yes, i know the existence of friends. But sometimes concern equals worrying, i do not appreciate naggings. i have enough to deal with at the moment. But thanks for leaving all ur concern msg. i appreciate them. Stop pitying me either, i do not have boy problem. Neither am i sobbing my heart out over any guy. It been ages since i was in a relationship and tt's because i chose not to be in one. It has nth to do with no suitors. There. enough explaination for whoever. i am leaving and creating a new ranting place, revealing it when i am ready to face the realistic world. cherie at 11/25/2005 04:38:00 AM do not, i warn, DO NOT tell a depressed person to snap out of it. Don't even talk about it. the depression hit her much deeper than u think it does. and nothing will make her feel better. the love ones just make her feel more weary. and no, popping the damn Prozac or seeking therapy just make it seem more redundant. the increasing anger frustration boils up. cherie at 11/01/2005 06:16:00 PM my world is messed up right now. everything around me seem kinda blur. i am sorry for those tt i neglect during my shut up period. just let me curl up in my small little world before i am ready to embrace u. cherie at 10/23/2005 06:09:00 AM blow the candles. u should know what you want for your birthday, cy aka cheryl. u should have an idea how you want to celebrate it. i DON"T KNOW. but then again why should i celebrate? it doesn't really matter at the end of day, does it? earning the money gets me the stuff i want. so ya. i am very touched at the dear friends who express their concern for me, but no i still do not want to meet anyone yet. On the contrary, aaron ask me to go back to work. it's ridiculous considering how much they ignore my pleas then. Just look at the number of people who left. i miss the place, the environment but then again LIFE GOES ON. And going back just mean i have to face the tremendous pressure and mockery again. Have i really moved on or am i still stuck there? i began to wonder whether everyone has move on except me. i don't need anyone. i just want to have fun, to chill out, to just play and smile. it's just scary when possession becomes a question. and demands an answer immediately. forget the woes and just party. muack. cherie at 10/15/2005 04:25:00 AM i should know a lot of things, but i don't. i don't know. i am lost. i am scared. i feel like i am disappearing. Nothing make any sense! -Clementine from Eternal sunshine of the Spotless mind. She describe exactly how i felt here and there. when things just fall apart, i wish i could just ripped it up like paper and toss them before turning them into ashes. Love itself is so demanding and selfish between lovers. If i can't have the happiness, just end it between you and me. and nothing, absolutely nothing seems to be able to pentrate the mind from the desire. the sex, the lust, the guilt, the pleasure, the sweetness, the passion... How simple if we can all live in the "If u want to be with me, just be with me fanstasy." cherie at 10/07/2005 02:41:00 AM hey you, whatever words tt been feeding my soul all this while will help me be STRONG and i want to be the girl smiling once again. give me a MONTH to crawl out of my shell. cheers. cherie at 10/01/2005 06:40:00 PM it's a cycle. on repeat mode. neverending. i think i enjoy the misery. the whole let me die part. it's so fun. so fun when u tell the damn doctor tt u are depressed and u want to end it. all he say to u is u need help. as if all the talking from the psychiatrist can solve my woes. haha. cherie at 9/29/2005 06:43:00 PM |
